For three consecutive days, I've witnessed something that has given an impact (more or less) in my life, precisely as a muslim. Like any other typical working days, I went to the musolla to perform the Asar prayer. And there's a women, in the musolla. The one that has given a significant transference in my life as one tiny khalifah in this world. Well she's one of the top managements here, and we have known each other ever since I was employed to this GLC company.
She has always been a very busy women. I reckon most managers are. As far as I had observed, she rushed most of the times. She talks in fast mode and she just gets her things done quickly, she can get her scarf done in 2 secs, but still look nice la. There are times she babbles a lot regarding the work loads she had and dejectedly, she used to missed the Zohor prayers when her works really ties her down. Nauzubillah..
Well, it's not that I have never missed my solat. I do missed it. I do subuh gajah and sometimes even subuh dinasour and I do 2-in-1. You know what I mean. I'm not a good muslim. But to missed it during working hours is somehow unacceptable for me. From 1 o'clock to 415pm, there is about 4hrs we have to actually arrange our times and try our best to get a 10mins slot for Zohor prayer. But deep down my heart, I do realize, I'm not in her shoe. Maybe she is such a super busy career women that is beyond my imagination. Who knows?
Until the past three days, I saw the women doing something that I have never seen before. She keeps on reciting the Quran in the musolla! Rasa sejuk hati ni tengok die baca dan dengar suara makcik tu melafazkan kalimah2 Allah. I just tengok saja. No specific feeling struck in my heart. But today, it comes to mind (and heart of course), WHY am I such an ignorant? WHY can't I just follow what she's been doing in the musolla?? It takes you just a few minutes to recite the Quran. Plus there are bundles of Quran on the shelves but I never had any intention to get it and what more to read it. And how bad was that! I feel so bad. Seriously.
It has been a while I didn't recite the holy Quran. Only Surah Yassin setiap malam Jumaat je kalo rajin. Itu pun nowadays tak dapat habiskan satu surah being the Maghrib period is short and my babysitter is staying with us. She needs to get a bath and solat too, so I have to take care of my son soon after I have performed the Maghrib prayer. Again, alasans. As far as I can remember, I only recite the Quran continuously during school days and yes, pregnancy. Huhu.. Itupun surah Luqman dengan Maryam je. Duk ulang yang tu lah hari2. Time lunch break tu rehat kat ofis sambil ON kn surah tu. Time kat rumah? Nasib baik Mr Husband yang asyik pesan baca Quran lepas solat Maghrib jemaah. Kalo die tak pesan alamatnye terus terlena atas katil la lepas solat. Biasa la time pregnancy kan. Asyik penat plus ngantuk je kerjanya.
Back to the main intention here. Finally the slightest eman in me drives me to take a Quran on the shelf. But suddenly I remembered there was iQuran app in my iPhone. I'd prefer the later one. Since it comes with translation, I can bookmark it, add some notes plus the bright colors may sooth my eyes while reading. I can also choose the reciters. But I'm afraid I'll disturb others who's performing solat with the amazing voice of the sheikhs, well from my phone? So it's a no. I had always turned ON the Quran recitation by Sheikh Husary whenever Faheem had bad dreams and he started meracau like duhh.. and I get so panic. Huhu. And the Quran helps. Alhamdulillah.. As for today, I chose Surah Ar-Rahman to begin with. And to my amazement, I can finish almost 40 lines in about 8mins! How easy it was to tambah pahala and feel good all day long. And you're still reluctant to do so?
Done with that. This is my new motivation of the day - To recite at least 30 lines of Al Quran everyday, after the Asar prayer, being there's no meetings etc. If she can do that, why can't I? I shall start with Al-Baqarah and hopefully towards the end. Lets see until when will this motivation lasts.
Oh shaytannn! Go away!
Oh shaytannn! Go away!